noshi17 - i found out the meaning to be broken in more ways then one.

i feel sick to my bones.
im hurt, very hurt.
tell u the truth, i never new that your best friends can be the biggest back stabber.
they are the best ones, the ones who uses u and abuses u.
yes, best friends! im never gonna trust any of them.
THEY MAKE ME SICK.

it my other entries i talked about how i like this boy.
and how this girl is trying to take him.
well her fucken mission is accomplish.
hope she fucken rots in hell..
gah!!!

first my friends fucken backstabbers kick me out of the limo b.c we are not "really friends after 5 fucken years".....like who says that.
i mean, what heart they have to even think that.
you would think that yea the people that you spend time with and the ones that you hang out with for five years are your friends...well i guessed wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

back to the boy thing....well she finally took him.
today, my fucken luck.
the day that i wanted to ask him to prom.
i think im gonna tell him how i feel tho.
what do u think? (to whom ever is reading this)

idk...im lost.
and broken
very broken
i want friends
i want my friends back.
i want me back


gah....sry for cuzin so much <33

depression hit in....lost a good 9 pounds..prob water weight still =(
binged on fudge ice cream last night, didn't hurt me tho. w/e

i want this pain to stop.
gah, im never happy, i want and need help.


AND IF I MAKE NO SENSE WHAT SO EVER SRRRRYYY