noshi17 -

i haven't posted or looked on live journal in a while.
and i been doing good.
and plus i found a boy friend????? 
well last night we talked and we both agreeded that we would keep our seeing each other on the down low.
we would not share it with our friends or family.
but then he went on saying "of course...we are friends"
OMFG...friends..that set me off i didn't yell at him but i didn't understand him either.
                     YOU MEAN U MAKE OUT WITH UR FRIENDS..AND TELL THEM HOW MUCH U LOVE THEM. MAKE THEM FEEL IMPORTAND, ASK THEM OUT ON A DATE, CALL THEM EVERY NIGHT JUST TO ASK THEM HOW THEY ARE AND STILL.....WE ARE JUST FUCKEN FRIENDS??/?????

MY POINT IS, IS THIS WHAT HE DOES WITH EVER "GIRL FRIEND' HE HAS??????
OR IS THIS A MISUNDERSTANDING

GAH I NEED HELP

AND AS SOON AS HE SAID THAT I FUCKEN TURNED TO FOOD.....AND SWEETS I DON'T CARE MUCH ABOUT THE EATING BUT REALLY, DO GUYS DO THAT HOOK UP WITH A GIRL FOR DAYS THEN SAY WE ARE FRIENDS

I KNOW I HAVE TO TALK TO HIM TO STRAIGHTIN THINGS OUT.

BUT THE THING IS THAT HE KNEW I WAS NEVER WITH A GUY AND THAT HE WAS MY FIRST KISS AND SHIT...SOUNDS STUPID BUT I WANTED MY FIRST TO MEAN SOMETHING TO ME......AND NOT JUST MAKING OUT WITH A FRIEND.

IF ANYONE IS READING THIS ADIVE WOULD HELP.
THNX <3