noshi17 -

 passover really fucked me up.
My life is fucking me up.
the world is against me.
Im surrounded by horrible people.
im not in a good state of mind right now.
If i had a gun or an instrument of painless death, i'd prob use it right now.
I have not been this bad in a while.
and i been bad, but this is like on the verge.
yea so my fasting is over, and im a complete fuck up.
My 3 ex's are out to kill me and ruin me.
I ate more than i can handle in the last 2 day.
Im fasting for a week, even if it kills me, or i kill myself before its over, which ever comes first. i fucken don't care anymore.
I wanna just rip my eyes out and not see anyone anymore. i really hate everyone, People are horrible, human nature is disgusting. 
I SHOULD JUST STAY IN MY ROOM FOR A VERY LONG TIME. im really gonna hurt myself.
about 2600 cals today
will gain 5 pounds that i lost no doubt.

THINSPO