noshi17 - R.I.P Grandpa 7-2-09

 I have no one to turn to. So i come on here, how pathetic!!!
My parents are such liars! How can i be so stupid and believe them for so long!
Im starting to doubt everything they say.
And i promise to myself that i will treat them like little children as well.
They always seem like they have to hide things from me~
Like fuck im 20 years old what the hell is wrong with these people, they cant come out and tell me flat out that my grandpa just pasted away.
Im at fucken work and my boss knows more about this than I do??? what the fuck is wrong with these people
My mom calls and tells my boss not to tell me anything?? HELLOOOO im the grand daughter!!! 
Crying my fucken eyes out and writing this bull shit...10 min after i find out. im ready to smash my computer into pieces,
i have soo much anger and frustration bottled up inside of me that i can't even explain.
I wanna ruin everything and hurt everything in my path im so mad.
Im not ever telling anything more than a few words to my parents about my life or anything of it.
Im sick of them!!!!
fucken lying to me .... changing stories every time they wanna explain to me about what just happened..
Fuck just tell me! " your grandpa just passed away" what is so hard about that. What lying and faking it is better? That makes me feel good? Makes the world okay? NOO...gets me angry like, Im four years old?!!! 
I think i have the right to kno before my fucken coworkers do!!!!

RIP gramps I LOVE YOU.